Do you ever get a Jesus life check? Recently I am being hit with them so often (and almost always end up being a crying, snotty mess of a person.) God has recently been dealing with me about not living my life so self-centered. It’s so easy to look at society and blame it for making us feel this way or that. Blaming society for low self-esteem and self-worth, blaming society for it’s clutter and for it’s twisted and negative images and messages. I completely get that, because I think society is to blame. Partly. But when I look at myself and I realize that I am portraying that self-serving nature that is going viral in today’s world. I blame myself.
I blame myself because even though sometimes it’s hard to see through the materialistic enticements and clutter, I am to blame because I let society sway me. I let it carry me. I become addicted to social media, I snap-chat every five minutes, I endlessly scroll through my face-book feed for no reason other than to look at other people’s lives, I spend hours watching You-tube videos (I make myself feel better by saying I’m learning and taking tips to better my You-tube channel). It’s funny that social media is a way to let everyone think that our lives are so grand, yet we are hurting inside. We struggle with self-worth yet we post a million and one pictures on Facebook/Instagram to make people think otherwise. Is there any surprise that there are insecurities rising because we compare ourselves to everyone else’s high lights?
It saddens me so much that I am so swayed by this world that it is hard for me to see someone alone, lost, or hurting. I feel as though I let the clutter of this world blind me to see the true heart and vision God has for myself and others. Molly Kate Kestner said, “Live your life in a way where the person you portray isn’t a copy of the person the world tells you to be.” Ask Yourself: What would I look like if I wasn’t so watered down by the world? How can I break free of the influence of this world and be who God really called me to be? How do I step out of this self-serving, “it’s all about me and my perfect life” nature?
I don’t know about you, but I want to be the very best version of me. The me that God created in the secret place and proclaimed all those beautiful things to. The me that can stop being so self-involved and self-serving and can really do what God told us to do in the first place; which was to love God, and love others.
“Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.” – Romans 12:2