The thing is, waiting is scary. Point-blank, period. I mean, it can be an exciting experience or an exciting emotion to feel, but to me, it’s just nerve-racking. To me, waiting means trusting in something bigger than myself. Someone, bigger than myself. How can I trust in something I don’t know will happen? Something I can’t see? But that is exactly who God is. Something I can’t see. Something I can’t see…but I know that I know that I know, exists. Waiting means giving my faith a chance to work. Giving my faith in God a chance to do amazing things.
I’ve had a couple of friends ask me why I’m still single. Why I don’t have a boyfriend. Or why I haven’t dated anyone since however long they’ve known me…and the truth is, I’m waiting. As cliche as it sounds, I am waiting for Mr. Right. But not just Mr. Right, but Mr. Loves-Jesus-with-all-his-heart. I am waiting for God’s best, because I know that when God places this guy in my life, It will be more beautiful than I ever could’ve imagined. Of course I’m human and I still doubt…
I doubt that I will ever meet this person that will pour into me as I pour into him. Who will get on his face and pray for me, as I do him. I doubt that I will meet a guy who loves Jesus with all his heart as I do. Someone who will sacrifice daily for God’s will, someone who will constantly push me towards God, and someone who will love me like Jesus does…I mean come on, it’s 2015 right?
Wrong. I mean, yes it is 2015, and yes I read a slightly depressing statistic that said that 85 percent of relationships end in break-ups,and an even more depressing face book post that explained what we call a ‘relationship’ in 2015 which was the epitome of the phrase, ‘friends with benefits’, and the fact that seemingly all the guys that ‘like’ me, have rubbish intentions… But you know what? Faith is believing in the impossible. The bible tells me that with God, all things are possible. So I choose to trust, I choose to believe, and I choose to WAIT. And while I’m waiting? I choose to serve God with all my heart, all my soul, and all my mind.